Wednesday, January 14, 2009

16 things about me

I saw this going around in blogs and decided it sounded like fun.

1. I dream of working on a movie set someday, not neccessarily as an actress, althou that would be awsome but just working on the set.

2. I sometimes think my dogs love me more then my friends.

3. I've only been truely, very drunk 3 times.

4. I have such a low self esteem that I feel bad that my friends have to look at me.

5. If I had the body I would be a stripper because they make great money.

6. I want to learn to walk in super high stillettos, but I'm afriad to break my ankel

7. I'm terrified of scorpians.

8. I'm afriad of leeches.

9. I went to the beach one time with my family and my brother had to tell me there was a big net tied from one end of the cliff to the other end of the cove we were in to get me to go out far because I'm afraid of sharks.

10. The first time I was sent to the principals office was in 1st grade, I mooned my class.

11. I'm having trouble thinking of 16 things to say.

12. I actually have been told by my mother that I'm a dissapointment

13. I've been to therapists and told I'm depressed, and I was supposed to be insittionalized but my parents wouldnt allow that, so I was supposed to be put on meds but they wouldnt do that either, so I was on suicide watch for a long time.

14. I don't think I'm good enough for anyone.

15. I'm obsessed with horror, supernatual things, and vampires.

16. I'm incapable of actually opening up to anyone.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


So awhile ago I had my wisdom teeth removed. Which resulted in never ending pain which got worse and worse and worse, until the dentist finnally realized months later that when I had my wisdom teeth removed they tweeked my other tooth and cut off blood to the nerve in my tooth. So the pain I was feeling was my tooth slowly dieing, which trust me, it hurts. So I had to have a root canal to clean out the nerve and stuff inside my tooth because there was no way to save it. Thank you wisdom teeth removal guy!
Anyway for the last 3 days up too my root canal I didn't sleep because it was too painful, I was litterally crying because it hurt so bad. I couldn't eat, or sleep, or talk. The day after thanksgiving, (yes the day AFTER, which means I didn't get my thanksgiving) I finally got my root canal, which was a pain in the ass, it didnt hurt when they were doing hurt but the mass amounts of meds I was on kicked my ass. I had a temporary filling put in because we couldn't afford to get the actual crown just yet.
Today I went in to get my crown started. I got my tooth chipped down and whatnot, I've got a temporary crown on and in two weeks I can go back and get the real one.
I feel awful right now thou, the nmbing stuff they give you has always kinda made me tired but today that, combined with the wierd casting chemicals, crown cement, and the mass amount of blood I swallowed I feel really sick.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

We broke up

I was looking through my blog after I had just posted that 2009 post and realized I never said anything about what happened with Doc. Yea, we broke up. I had been wanting to break up for awhile but didn't have the heart to say anything. I had just kinda been avoiding him and finnally he said he felt we didnt spend enough time together and broke it off. Yep thats the story there.


I'm going to blog more often I've decided. I don't know why, but it just sounds like a good way to pass the time.
Summing up this post:
For new years I had a RL party where a friend of mine who's never drank got wasted, it was entertaining.
SL: I'm now a sn@tch model. I'm amazingly excited. I need to go rack up hours thou, I've been bad about that already.
I've decided I want to do more outings on SL, or join and RP or something because it seems all I do is shop or organize inventory.
I also think it might be fun to find a SLBF. Althou I need to find one who's not all about sex because that doesnt interest me a all. The only reason I want a SLBF is to have someone to go to the romantic places of SL or to dance on the couples daceballs stuff like that. Sadly most SL Guys are all about the sex. lol